Well...... junior year... its over

Whew..... what a CRAZY year its been.

Well..... lets do it agian! You know the drill --

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Currently Listening MMHMM By Relient K see related

I'll tell you flat out
It hurts so much to think of this
So from my thoughts i will exclude
The very thing that
I hate more than everything is
The way I'm powerless
To dictate my own moods

I've thrown away
So many things that could've been much more
And I just pray
My problems go away if they're ignored
But that's not the way it works
No that's not the way it works

When I go down
I go down hard
And i take everything I've learned
And teach myself some disregard
When I go down
It hurts to hit the bottom
And of the things that got me there
I think, if only I had fought them

If and when I can
Clear myself of this clouded mind
I'll watch myself settle down
Into a place where Peace can search me out and find
That I'm so ready to be found

I've thrown away
The hope I had in friendships
I've thrown away
So many things that could have been much more
I've thrown away
The secret to find an end to this
And i just pray
My problems go away if they're ignored
But that's not the way it works
No that's not that way it works

Any control I thought I had just slips right through my hands
While my ever-present conscience shakes its head and reprimands me
Reprimands me
Then and there
I confess
I'll blame all this on my selfishness
Yet you love me
And that consumes me
And I'll stand up again
And do so willingly
You give me hope, and hope it gives me life
You touch my heavy heart, and when you do it makes me light
As I exhale I hear your voice
And I answer you, though I hardly make a noise
And from my lips the words I choose to say
Seem pathatic, but it's a fallen man's praise

Because I love you
Oh God, I love you

And life is now worth living
If only because of you
And when they say I'm dead and gone
It won't be further from the truth

When I go down
I lift my eyes to you
I won't look very far
Cause you'll be there
With open arms.....

To lift me up again....

To lift me up again....

Currently Reading Wild at Heart: Discovering the Secret of a Man's Soul By John Eldredge see related

Putting A Big Lion In A Tiny Cage

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I have this really big craving for an amazing afternoon/evening of mini-golf. Next chance we get, we are all going.

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I remember way back when my fifth grade waaay back at William Yates took a feild trip to the Kansas City Zoo. Wow, now THAT was an awesome place. I remember walking around all day, looking from cage to cage at all the animals and their habitats. The zoo is split up into different sections, and each one is kind of like a different continent, and each has its respectable animals located there. I remember going, and the one animal I really really wanted to see was the king of all animals, the lion. I dont really remember if I ever got to see one or not, but when I look back, seeing pictures and television shows that show lions in cages, and it really takes me back..... seeing that king of all animals, the animal that is supposed to be free and wild, out in the savannah chasing prey and ruling his land, and to see it in this small little acre of land, surrounded by fences and amazed children and parents.....

Now, dont take me as a tree-hugging "free the animals" lunatic.... But it really made me think of how many times I put God in that cage. God, the Creator of the universe, the Ruler of everything, the One, alpha, omega, omniscient I AM. How much control can we possibly have over Him? I should be the one in the cage, taking orders and letting God watch me with google-eyes.

But thats the difference, God gave us free will, the will to choose right or wrong. He gave us the ultimate freedom, but then how many times do I put Him back in this small cage. Put him away, lock the key, and only let Him out when its convenient for me, and when I have the time? Seems a little bit ironic that Im putting the creator of cages in a cage Himself.

Maybe its time for us to let God out of that cage. Let Him roam free over our lives, our circumstances, and just let him take control of things for once. Stop hiding from Him and staying as far away as possible, and go to Him and let Him take control. He created you, me, the sun and stars, the earth, keeps it rotating everyday, created the atom, gave us the human brain....... you know what I mean. Maybe He CAN take care of things after all.....

A little thought there for you guys.....

God Provides, Keep Looking Up!

Bradlee

dull as dirt
you can´t assert the kind of light
that might persuade
a strict dictator to retire
fire the army
teach the poor origami
the truth is in
the proof is when
you hear your heart start asking,
"What´s my motivation?"


and try as you may, there isn´t a way
to explain the kind of change
that would make an Eskimo renounce fur
that would make a vegetarian barbecue hamster
unless you can trace this about-face
to a certain sign...


shine
make ´em wonder what you´ve got
make ´em wish that they were not
on the outside looking bored
shine
let it shine before all men
let´em see good works, and then
let ´em glorify the Lord

out of the shaker and onto the plate
it isn´t Karma
it sure ain´t fate
that would make a Deadhead sell his van
that would make a schizophrenic turn in his crayons
Oprah freaks
and science seeks a rationale
that shall excuse
this strange behavior

when you let it shine
you will inspire
the kind of entire turnaround
that would make a bouncer take ballet
(even bouncers who aren´t happy)
but out of the glare
with nowhere to turn
you ain´t gonna learn it on "What´s My Line?"

You Are Sunshine

Soothing and calm You are often held up by others as the ideal But too much of you, and they'll get burned You are best known for: your warmth Your dominant state: connecting

Currently Reading Wild at Heart : Discovering the Secret of a Man's Soul By John Eldredge see related

Why hello everyone, thought I would make a quick appearance on here, just for old times sake. Sometimes, you just need a break from all the electronic equipment, from all the "noise" of the world, just a moment away from the gossip, rumors, complaining, and all that jazz that comes with this thing we call life, and just get out and live!!

And I must say, it has been well worth it.... so worth it, I think I'll continue, so heres a quick thought.

Prom was amazing! Wow.. the time of my life. With amazing friends, a ton of fun, and the best prom date a guy could ask for! Wow, gorgeous and tons of fun, she made the night worth it..... even when we happened to get "lost" somewhere around raytown in the pouring rain at 1:00 a.m.............. yeah, it was amazing!

1 Kings 19:11-13

11Then he (Elijah) was told, "Go, stand on the mountain at attention before GOD. GOD will pass by."

    A hurricane wind ripped through the mountains and shattered the rocks before GOD, but GOD wasn't to be found in the wind; after the wind an earthquake, but GOD wasn't in the earthquake; 12and after the earthquake fire, but GOD wasn't in the fire; and after the fire a gentle and quiet whisper.

    13When Elijah heard the quiet voice, he muffled his face with his great cloak, went to the mouth of the cave, and stood there. A quiet voice asked, "So Elijah, now tell me, what are you doing here?"

 God Bless.... Keep Looking Up

Brad